jstanothergirl's Blog

Im Not waiting For lIfe To Keep Up With me Anymore.
Im Moving On Faster Then Life Intends me To Be.

Im Hopelessly In Love, Surrounded by the most beautifulest People I Could ever Imagine.
I Believe im the strongest girl out there.

I Am Proud of myself to go through hell & Come out on the other Side. I Am Proud to be standing here now. As My doubts had the Dominant side of my life.

Im Not Waiting for life anymore, No one stops... Ive learnt that now. Its time they catch up with me

Christ Church, Oxford, October 28, 1876

My Dearest Gertrude

You will be sorry, and surprised, and puzzled, to hear what a queer illness I have had ever since you went. I sent for the doctor, and said, "Give me some medicine. for I'm tired." He said, "Nonsense and stuff! You don't want medicine: go to bed!"

I said, "No; it isn't the sort of tiredness that wants bed. I'm tired in the face." He looked a little grave, and said, "Oh, it's your nose that's tired: a person often talks too much when he thinks he knows a
great deal." I said, "No, it isn't the nose. Perhaps it's the hair." Then he looked rather grave, and said, "Now I understand: you've been playing too many hairs on the pianoforte."

"No, indeed I haven't!" I said, "and it isn't exactly the hair: it's more about the nose and chin." Then he looked a good deal graver, and said, "Have you been walking much on your chin lately?" I said, "No." "Well!" he said, "it puzzles me very much.

Do you think it's in the lips?" "Of course!" I said. "That's exactly what it is!"

Then he looked very grave indeed, and said, "I think you must have been giving too many kisses." "Well," I said, "I did give one kiss to a baby child, a little friend of mine."

"Think again," he said; "are you sure it was only one?" I thought again, and said, "Perhaps it was eleven times." Then the doctor said, "You must not give her any more till your lips are quite rested
again." "But what am I to do?" I said, "because you see, I owe her a hundred and eighty-two more." Then he looked so grave that tears ran down his cheeks, and he said, "You may send them to her in a box."

Then I remembered a little box that I once bought at Dover, and thought I would someday give it to some little girl or other. So I have packed them all in it very carefully. Tell me if they come safe or if any are lost on the way."

- Lewis Carroll 

Life Is Amazing.
Im Smiling To The World, You Know This Is Real When You Cant Wipe That Perfect Smile Off Your Face.
Life Is Amazing :)

Why is it words are harder to speak In Person?
Why Music Speaks Louder Then Words?
Why Actions Seem More Descriptive?
Why Is it when i pour my heart to you, You walk away?
I thought we had all the time in the world.
I thought we could wait till the fireworks Bloom
Its Just another dream wasted on you,
Once The Pieces of glass Is broken, It cant be glued back on..
Once my heart breaks on you, You carry it around With you...

I Deleted Your Number, You Dont Deserve to be in my life.
Im 17 Going on 18 Soon, I Shouldnt Have To Figure Anything Out right now.
I am not in denial anymore, I do miss you,
Im proud to say those words, Means i still have a heart, Caring Heart
I Know i have so much more to give, I have bigger Dreams In life
Im gonna believe you next time When you say You love me,
Im Still A child, And Im Glad to Be.

 I Want to say
- I am a strong independant girl,
- I Dont need you, or want you to fight my battles
- I want you to actually be there if the love of battlefield did get out of hands
- I dont need you in my head constantly
- But when im alone i quietly say to myself id love for you to be in my head
- I believe in miracles, Even if they happen rarely, Cherish it when they do happen
- I want to be myself, Hyped up mood and depressed mood
- The reason why were not friends now, Is that you werent good enough to make it to my present and wont be there in my future
- Just give me your undivided Love.

 Ignorance Is Bliss
Somethings Are Better Unspoken
Im Not Too Keen On Finding Out Secrets As They Can Crush Me In A Hearbeat
Trust Is Hard To Come By, As It Can Be Destroyed Within Seconds
Its Fact No Fiction For Once
Smiles Can Cover Any Pain
Someones Pain, Is Someones Success
Im Not Perfect, Neither Are You
I Just Accept You For You
I Want To Say... But I Cant
Trying Just Brings Failure

Im Loving Angels Instead, Im Loving Butterflies Instead, Im Loving Other Couples Instead, Im Loving My Friendships Wise words, Im Loving The Soft melody That comes from your mouth,
Im Loving Angels Instead

I want to be the butterfly, and your the flower i lean on when i need somewhere to land
I want to be the darkness, and you be the light when i need your spirit,
I want to be the rose, And you to be the water when im slowly withering away
I want to be the Stars, And the you to be the moon to always give my guidance of where to sit for the night
I Want to be the winter, and you to be the summer to always give me warmth
I want to be the pen, And you to be the paper that is always there when i need to express myself
I want to be the words, And you to be the ears who are always listening
I want to heat, And you to be the water that will always calm me
I want to be the girl, And you to be the boy who is there when i need you.

I Want To Get lost in the city,
I Want To walk on the beach at night For the rest of my life
I Want To Write Our names togethor in the sand
I Want To Call you my own
I Want To Live in New York
I Want To visit Paris
I Want To dress vintage for a day
I want To Wish all my worries away.
I Want To Fall asleep with you next to me, And to wake up with you by my side.

Whenever I hear a soft melody, I Feel safe, I Feel Undescribable.
I Rely On the Notes from music To Keep my sanity, Its like saying your my music Notes, When im not listening to You, I Miss it.
Nothing could change this voice From me, Your my notes, So Keep Playing Baby, Keep Playing those Sweet Words To My Ear.
Dont Ever Stop.

I Want to take black and white Photography on the beach
I want to Write my name in the sand And watch it rinse away with the fresh water
I Want to Kiss In the water And make it last
I Want to Surf the waves
I Want to Make sand castles Like i used too.
I want to lay Side By Side Holding Your Hand, Cherishing the moment We made
 

I Would Waste All this away if i could spend one day with you... But seeing as it isnt going to happen, Ill Enjoy the Beautiful Sunrise And Sunset On This Wonderful Beach.

I Hate the way im supposed to love you,

Im scared of the way you dont love me anymore.

Im scared that you have forgotten about me completely

I just hate the way your not in my life anymore.

Lets take this day, Cherish it.

lets remember today, Not as the day of you broke my heart,

but as the day we shared togethor. And as all the memories we had.

Coz there is not one day where you dont cross my mind.

Its like calling him the flying birds, up high in the sky, always there but never quite close enough to reach him, always different birds, but always wanting the same pretty shaped and coloured bird, sometimes i wish i was a bird just so i can fly far away from here, fly far away with you by my side.